Today I went outside to stand around in the rain. There was a corner of the yard that drew me. There is a vine on and over the fence. When I went over to it there were three flies resting on the vine leaves. I thought that this wasn’t a coincidence and was supposed to symbolize the Holy Trinity. I was looking at one fly and it used its legs to touch its head and it was fast and looked interesting. It then flew away and another fly came and replaced it immediately. I wrote up to this point in my diary and walked back to the vine. There were still three flies on the vine, but they were on different leaves. I touched the bottom of the leaf and put my hand right in front of its face and it didn’t move. This reminded me of something I read about how God will give you dominion over animals and they will obey you.
I then saw a cloud in the sky that looked like a man with a crown, right next to the sun. A little before that I felt the world was so small, and that it was like a world in a walnut shell.
Later as I was laying on the bed to go to sleep and one of the voices said something I thought about once, how I cannot just cry or show emotion without them being there. Which is how I feel about there invasive presence. I randomly start crying without feeling anything. I know God gives us tears, because I read it in Catherine of Sienna’s book “The Dialogue”. This means to me that God really cares about how I feel and I shouldn’t care what the voices think.
The world in a walnut shell theory was come up with by Julian of Norwich.
